The boy sat quietly at the front of the room , staring out one of the windows , waiting for Mrs. Kennedy to finish reading the letter that his foster mother had sent to school with him. Through the open windows , the sounds of children at play could be heard. In fifteen minutes , the bell would ring , signaling an end to first period recess. Every now and then the boy would smile , perhaps seeing something outside that caught his fancy , or recalling something pleasant from his past.
As she read the letter , Mrs. Kennedy glanced up at him every so often. He never once looked her way. He just stared out the window , smiling that half smile. When he wasn't smiling , his face was devoid of emotion. Blank and empty. He hadn't said a word since his mother dropped him off with the letter. She remembered how the other children had stared at him as if he were an undiscovered species of insect. She had asked him his name ; he had not looked at her , and he had not answered. He had just stood there with his hands behind his back , and his head lowered , as if in shame.
He was an enigma. But the letter did explain some things about him. He was a loner. He kept to himself , and did not socialize with others , especially with children his own age. He seldom spoke , even when spoken to.
No one knew where he had come from , or who his birth parents had been. All that was known of him , was that one day he had suddenly and mysteriously appeared on the doorstep of the Third Street Orphanage , in a fruit basket , with a note that read : My name is Jeffrey. Please take care of me.
Because nothing was known about his background , other than his name , most people were reluctant to adopt such a child. The first six and a half years of his life had been spent in and out of the orphanage. From the time of his arrival , the Sisters noticed something strange about him : the child never cried , not even when he was hungry.
The other children knew that he was different , not like them. They had heard the nuns talking about him , and so the boy became an easy target. They did their best to torment him. They made fun of him and called him names , and once he had received a beating sever enough that he had to be hospitalized. As he lay in a pool of his own blood , some of the children swore that the boy had become translucent , as if he were beginning to fade.
But , these were children , and children could not always be believed , so the Mother Superior dismissed it as an attempt to distract her attention from their guilt.
Jeffrey was adopted soon after his seventh birthday , but was returned to the orphanage just after six weeks , with no explanation. He was almost eight when he was adopted a second time , but once again was returned , this time after two weeks , again with no explanation as to why.
Mrs. Kennedy finished reading the letter and put it away.
"Would you like to go outside , Jeffrey?"
The boy didn't answer. He continued staring out the window. He was no longer smiling.
"I'll let you go outside , if you answer some questions. Do we have a deal?"
He was silent so long , she didn't think he would answer. Then , without looking away from the window , he said in a voice so low that she could barley hear him , "It depends on what you want to know."
"I guess I'd like to know why you're so distant."
"People don't like me."
"Why do you think people don't like you?"
This time he did look at her. Tears welled in his eyes , and his lower lip trembled slightly. She felt a sudden urge to hug the boy.
Turning back to the window , he said , "I think it's because they...can sense that I don't belong here. They know I'm different , and it scares them. They don't know how to behave around me. They're afraid of me. I don't want them to be afraid of me! It's not my fault it happens! It only happens when I get really lonely , and want to go home."
"What happens , Jeffrey?"
"When I fade out."
Jeffrey sat on one of the swings , watching the other children play. Mrs. Kennedy watched him through the same window he had been staring out only minutes ago. None of the other children paid the slightest attention to him.
As if he knew she were watching him , he raised a hand , as if to wave. But it took her a moment to realize that he wasn't waving. He was staring at his raised hand. He continued staring at it , realizing that something was about to happen , something he had desperately been hoping for. Then , with a wistful smile , he began to swing , propelling himself forward , harder and higher , faster and faster , building up speed , picking up momentum , until he was swinging for the sky , swinging for all he was worth , swinging as if for the first time in his life.
He felt a sudden joy , and laughed , and was surprised to hear himself laugh. It was the first time he could ever remember laughing , and it felt like nothing he had ever felt before. The confusion , fear , and loneliness of the past eight years - which were more like a life time - was slipping away. Now , all he felt was joy. Now he was beginning to understand what was happening to him. He was going home. Not to a place where he was feared , but to a place where he had already been accepted , long before he had been born. Where he already belonged , and always had , and his parents would be there , parents he had never known. He smiled again , remembering their faces. He knew he would see them soon.
Mrs. Kennedy glanced over at the clock on the wall. In less than two minutes the bell would ring. When she looked back at him , he was gone. She gasped. She looked around the school yard , not seeing him anywhere among the other children. She panicked. She ran outside , and halted at the swings. The one he had been on was still moving back and forth , as if he were still swinging on it. Up and down it went , reaching for the sky. She stared at it , noticing that there was no wind.
It continued swinging for a moment or two , and then slowly came to a stop. Several of the nearest children were staring at her. One was a girl of about seven , with a freckled face and pig tails.
"Are you OK Mrs. Kennedy?" she said.
"Did you see where he went?"
"Who?"
"The boy on the swing."
The girl frowned. "There was no boy on the swing , Mrs. Kennedy."
"Yes , there was. It was Jeffrey. His name was Jeffrey!"
The girl frowned again. "Who's Jeffrey?"
The bell rang. The girl turned and ran back to the classroom with the other children. Mrs. Kennedy started to follow , but stopped when she noticed that something was lying in the dirt below the swing. It was a piece of paper. Frowning , she picked it up and read it. It was addressed to her. It said :
I'm going home now. Where no one is afraid of me. Where I don't have to be lonely anymore. Please remember me. Jeffrey.
As she stared at the words , tears filling her eyes - her mind unable to comprehend what had just happened - she noticed that they were beginning to fade. In a moment , they too would be gone forever , like the boy who didn't exist.