I used to think it was normal to go through life feeling unloved and unwanted ; to be lonely and afraid all the time.
I was a kid then ; I didn't know any better. Now that I'm older , I know that it wasn't normal. But what do you do when you've been conditioned to feel this way? When you were raised in a family where no love was openly expressed? How else are you supposed to feel?
My parents weren't the type to express love. Loneliness was a big part of my life when I was growing up , and because I was lonely , I spent a lot of time being alone.
If you were given a choice between life and death , which would you choose?
Most of us would choose life. But for those who lose hope , and don't know where to turn to for help , feel they have no choice but to choose death. When you know that the end of your life is so close you can almost reach out and touch it , a curious thing begins to happen : the instinct for survival kicks in. Suddenly , the idea of living doesn't seem so bad. You no longer want to die. You want to live.
I was a kid then ; I didn't know any better. Now that I'm older , I know that it wasn't normal. But what do you do when you've been conditioned to feel this way? When you were raised in a family where no love was openly expressed? How else are you supposed to feel?
My parents weren't the type to express love. Loneliness was a big part of my life when I was growing up , and because I was lonely , I spent a lot of time being alone.
If you were given a choice between life and death , which would you choose?
Most of us would choose life. But for those who lose hope , and don't know where to turn to for help , feel they have no choice but to choose death. When you know that the end of your life is so close you can almost reach out and touch it , a curious thing begins to happen : the instinct for survival kicks in. Suddenly , the idea of living doesn't seem so bad. You no longer want to die. You want to live.
I know this to be true , because it happened to me. The day I tried to kill myself was the last day of my old life. When I woke up in the hospital , the following morning , it was the beginning of a new life. At the time , I didn't know it , but my life was about to change. About to change for the better.
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